Fall.

I've get my overall marks of continuous assessment for Management Information Systems. The marks will be considered in the pointer of the course. If I'm not mistaken, it is 50 % of continuous assessment and 50 % of final exam.

okay, I have get 21 marks per 50.

OMG!

The mind goes blanked. Everything blanked .

Then I recalled my previous failure cause by stupid careless.

The picture of get CGPA 3.95 for Sem 1 in matriculation, the picture of get Band 3 for Muet. Everything just comes out randomly.

I saw myself cried badly while hugging Bsie for getting A- of Economic. I saw myself cried badly beside my bed for 6 more marks to get Band 4 . I saw the failure again. It’s pain.

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I've sent an email to my tutorial lecturer.

Dear MR Khaled

Hi , I'm Yeap Yann Joo from tutorial class CBEB 1103 slot 5-6pm Thursday.

I've get my marks of tutorial assignments, it's quite low compared to others. I would like to know is it because of the quality of my assessment or because of any file did corrupted, So can I know each marks for my assignment?


Don't worry, I just want to know where is the mistake and learn from it. Thanks for your kindness. Hope to get your reply as soon.

Have a nice day. Good Night .

Regards,
Yeap Yann Joo.


Then this is the replied.

Hi
I am sorry for the marks you got, actually 2 of your assignment was not working (corrupted disk) some more your group assignments was not that good, however details marks can get upon request from Dr Shamsul.

regards
Khaled

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I called daddy yesterday. He always be the one who I always felt owe him much and apology for my mistakes. Then I called and explained all.

"pa,joo's result for this sem will not be that flying colors already"
"pa also don't know how to say as I was not there with you, don’t know how was you doing. But it happened. What we can do is just look forward, do better next time."
"don't think about it already, let it pass and focus on the future."

I want to apology and say sorry to him. But again I cried before could say anything.

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Later on I called him. Told him everything. He spoke like my father and asked me to do better next time.
Then I start to lose my temper,"next time! next time! last time also said want to do better next time! In future there is how may 'next time' awaits? "

Then he stuck and we both silent. I realized my temper make him helpless...Dear,rry rry ya :]

But then cry could feel better although it can't change anything. I could do nothing but do something for final exams.

Can't dream other else, just hope can maintain my scholarship.That's more than enough.

Quote from father,

look forward, did your best is enough, make no regrets.

加油！

今天是十一月一号，凌晨12：26

看不见月亮，看不见星星，刚刚闪电了呢

那你可知道我这里现在下雨么？

:)

明天将开始semester 1 的考试了

第一张paper， hubungan etnik，相关的提示一直在流传着，我还没开始去留意呢，还有两个chapter，当年背sejarah 的技巧不知丢哪了，哈

对于自己努力这六个月的努力比例来看，对这次考试我不敢奢望，只能期望。

加油吧，全部人

post jiwang

Hari ni aku tension. Tak tau bakpo. Mungkin sebab belum habis study untuk coming test lagi kot.

Dekat exam nih,aku meme sene jiwang. Rindu kat ramai ore. Especially parents aku dgn geng geng matrix dulu.

Rindu kat azie hok suko tepik YYJ bila aku bukak pintu bilik. Rindu kat pika yang suka menari dgn blanketnyer. Rindu kat yasmin yang kesian selalu jadi penasihat geng bilik aku nih.

Teringat mase lipas yang tidak berdosa yang berjaya mengejutkan roommateS and call aku untuk menjadi pembunuh lipas. Aku pun tak berdosa tau.

Aku rindu dgn lokar yang besar sehingga memuatkan aku bergayut kat dalam.

Dekat exam nih,teringin aku balik rumoh. Mama aku selalu suruh aku tidur walaupun aku tok habis study lagi. Beliau selalu teman aku hingga menderma darah kat penghisap-penghisap yang bersayap itu. Papa aku plak selalu pura pura tengok tv,mungkin beliau memang tengah tengok tv kot,tapi aku suka menganggap nyer sebagai sayang daripada beliau.

Aku harap aku dapat result yang bagus, at least membanggakan,maklumlah kak long perlu buat teladan yang baik.

Rindu plak aku kat geng geng volley untuk aku release tension pade petang. Tadi jiwang giler,aku gi maen volley sorang sorang. Rase okay lah kot,tak de lah tension sangat lepas kena bolo pukul berapa kali kat bahu aku. eh tapi aku serve atas lepas weh. buat aku happy untuk hari ni. harap dapat maintain standard macam ni, itu sudah memuaskan.

Aku rindu kat sorang. Die tak de kat sini ajar aku guono nak serve guono nak dig. You know I meant you.

besok ade accounting test, aku harap dapat buat molek. hari khamis nih ado statistic test plak. harap harap tak kan membunuh aku.

Hari semalam aku nangis plak. Kenape aku sene sangat titiskan air mata yang masin itu. Aku harap si dia sihat walafiat selalu,bless him. aku tak mau kehilangan sesiapa yang sudah menjadi sebahgian daripada hidup aku ini. aku tau aku tak dapat tanggung.

aku harap semuo sihat selalu,itu merupakan hadiah terbaik buat aku.



ps sedap plak blog dalam bm nih,hahhh study lah joo,blog gapo plak ,ish.

保佑我

心口很空

怎么进考场

凭什么

三个星期倒数

保佑我

Diabolo Geng is alive!

today,lets these few photos speak .

Diabolo - Devil on two stick :D

It build up our friendship,make the relationship grow stronger.
Although sometimes it was pain . But still we love the pain ! XD
(okay,at least I love the pain :P )

Jiing Yii said, these few days feel like in kmph again . Totally agree with that .

We are still alive babe :D


Learn many new paterns today. With the present of our SIFU,haha so happy he were there with us and also noisy xiao huang. :P

Really wish that we can perform as one team again!




















♥The first gathering~ At 11th college, as um division. wakaka






















♥Second gathering, 11Oct2010 with the present of Sifu Phooi.




















♥lastly, xiang si dou . We miss kmph and the moments we had together . C:

dear,how good if you was there .
I miss you

change the world or change yourself ?

Just read my honey's blog . Just read my dd's blog . Just read some people blogs.

How come almost each of them lost after get into uni. As the senior Wan Jun said, it's hard to get a silence in big community. Yes, it’s true .

We just couldn't compare how the secondary school and matrix life was such perfect compared with uni,because we are getting older, the community is getting bigger, relationship become so complicated, and then you thought you are no longer the one you used to be .

You start to miss the one you used to be proud of yourself.

You start to compare how wonderful the time when you're hanging out with them .

You start to wonder why you just can't shout around and do what you want .

You blame the surrounding, You blame yourself.

If you cannot change the world, Change yourself. This is what we try to do, and yet we THOUGHT we are lost.

Evolution. Every life is trying harder to make it and protect himself.

And again, you start to lock your soul, your heart. And try to be the one you familiar with.

If there is some way you can change the world, would you just take it with any risk and let go something you love?

I wish I could.