my story will go on

it have been one month plus plus I'm here .
but still I feel strange to this place .
KL doesn't seems familiar to me. People thought studying at kl would be fun.
No, it is not , for me.

maybe I not yet found my destiny , who know?
never mind , I believe I can adapt it sooner or later.

I'm going to have my 4th orientation in this month . that is first year student destiny huh? adoi . About the study, I think I still manage to catch it , and will work harder for it . no more regret in study . I want to score. 3.7 and above . perhaps i should target 4 flat . If I can't reach the sky , at least I can catch the star :)

It suppose to have three gathering by today . but i reject all of them. I did spend my day with bee sie and sew hwa for window shopping and movie two days ago. Although it was window shopping, I did spent almost my one week expenses. If I still go out today,then this week I'm going to makan rumput. paise lahh, will meet you all asap ya =)

I told one of my ex volley mate, I did become a shy girl after enter uni. Shy? it do not suit me as well. ahaha but I really have no courage to mix with others lahh and plus a bit bit lazy . I wish I could isolated myself . live in my own world . mix with my own friend . I have no idea I have how many courage to tolerate and accept different type of friends . sometimes I was thinking too much. Just let it be . One day I may feel thankful to them.

oh ya, i did shorten my hair before enter uni. hhehe . the look of mine after recovered from the stupid virus ( duno what kind of virus is that ) . As I didnt take antibiotic from doctor , I didn't afraid of you , bluerrrrkssss sho sho go away !






And thanks god I still manage to have my time with my dear. How long would a long distance relationship last? I have no idea . maybe tomorrow? maybe one day after i end up my life ? =D
jia you Joo .


there are few things I wish I can make in this uni (for now)
♥ I wish I can score better than yesterday .
♥ I wish I can improve my lousy English .
♥ and lastly I wish I can play volley as usual . feel kinda incomplete when there is no volley. ahaha


bless me and also you . have a nice day everyone :)

Go away illness !

最近很累
咳嗽了
只差没有咳血

想睡了
晚安宝贝们


updated :

I'm not trying to blame anyone here.

when you are getting older and become an adult .
you must have to believe , the world is realistic and people are not easily get closer to each other.

I miss the time when there was someone brought you a 100 plus when you are sick.
I miss the time when there was roommates turn off the fan when you was getting fever.
They did it without notified you .

It were sweet yet become a history .

It would not happen again, at least for now .

I'm desperate for 100 plus , anyone ?
=)


updated 2 :

I went to clinic today .
The doctor and farmacist were fierce =/
amitoba I'm safe from H1N1
Thank You god Thank You Everyone =)

It have been such a long time I didn't take medicine

I'm emo tonight .

this make me cried , like hell .

now bi will go sarawak n yu at selangor, its really far,
but yu
promise bi
that everyday will miss bi
think of bi b4 sleep,
call bi if yu miss bi,
dun emo because of bi,
yu must enjoy university life there when bi is not there, but with bi inside yu heart ya^^

long distance relationship is a challenge 4 us,
yu be brave with bi ya,
brave to take the challenge,
brave to love each other,
although many thing we cannot do when we are apart, but we keep it first ^^

yu, be strong

I thought I was strong enough . but i didn't .
not dare to cry out loud . my roommate will thought ghost screaming at the midnight .



I was homesick for the first week in uni and so called orientation week . The activities were acceptable for me , but then i just was too emo .

Friends who are close with me know that I am independent , this behaviour made me become a loner .I was enjoying be a loner , live with my own way , and be what i want to be .

After all , I realise a loner seems doesn't get ready with the uni life . You will work out nothing if you just live in your own castle . There are lots of group work and wide range of activities are waiting . It's really impossible to work out with only a pair of hand.

I was proud of myself to be independent but it is the time to step out from my castle and work with different type of people , tolerate and accept each other . I promise I will try .

And do you know , easily satisfied was not a good thing after all . Previously I thought myself was a really good kind of man who was easily satisfied , as the time passes , all of that can be bull shit of contributing you to become a person who have no determination of goal and didn't try hard to coloured the life .

after all , i miss the home that can accept who i am .
after all , there is only the place welcome you although you're nothing .

I promise I will try , to be someone that you proud of having me .

Good night dear .